Today I was struggling with a pain-filled pondering.
I do not like change.
When my routine is upset I get thrown off track and forget stuff. When I’ve become comfortable in a place, but then that place changes, I get frustrated, discouraged, even depressed. I work at two horse farms. Both of them are for sale by their owners. This is a pending change that often makes me feel a sense of worry, and doom.
One of the farms is the home for my horses. They are happy there. I was happy there, before things started to change. I try to continue to be happy there even though the owner is changing fencing configurations. There are fences that no longer have a gate. Gates now block what used to be open access. Small changes but still I find it dismaying.
Pondering these changes and feeling that somehow my response to them was not ‘right’, I get hit upside the head (figuratively) by God. Change does not happen without the hand of God. He controls all changes and the results of change. If I am resistant to change, then I am also resisting Him. I am setting myself in His place as the one who should control.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus” Philippians 4:6-7 (NIV).
Wow, does that make me feel better about what is going on regarding the sale of these two farms. I keep telling myself that God is going to use this to bring people into my life that will enrich me in some way. I pray that I will, in turn, be used to enrich theirs.
Are you trying to cope with changes in your life? Ask God for His peace to guard your heart and mind as well.